My friend has passed…
Nothing but tears today on my drive at the end of winter break. John is gone & all I wanted was to talk to him and have him console me and give me guidance.
I cry because I miss him & my biggest struggle is loneliness. I cry though because I told him he cannot leave this earth until I have my life figured out. He is gone & I feel as though I have less figured out than ever before.
Why do I love John? He gave me the best gift of all: unconditional love. Built me up rather than tore me down. Made me feel as though I can do anything in this world.
So I guess I have my answer - never settle until you find that again.
I pray he watches out for me, still shows me love, and helps me to make the right decisions in life. I want him to still see how my life plays out - a life that doesn’t disappoint either one of us.
